so soon!!

I am doing a really bad job at updating this every week, aren’t i? I will try to do better when I am on the feild, I promise!!

Africa is in less than a month for me! that is so scary and exciting at the same time! My mom compares the time right now as the time you wait before you ride the rollercoaster. You stand in line, and everytime you watch the ride take off, your heart takes a leap, and your stomach drops before you even get on it. then, when you are next up, you get all excited and nervous at the same time, and someitmes, you even have second thoughts about the ride. But when you get on it, you relieze that it was actually kind of fun, that it was over before you knew it, adn that it wasn’t all that scary anyway. I am jsut at that waitinf part, the part that is scary, and I fear what is ahead of me. I know that once I “get on”, the experience will be wonderful things I have ever done. i just have to get on first.

     I have been thinking a lot about all the things I will miss while I am gone latley. I will miss the sound of my brothers laughing to the TV show cheers, and listening to my brother Jim making up stories. just as everyone starts to believe him, he will say “just kidding, but I really did do this. shoot, you believed me.” I will miss the mystry of my brother Brandon. you can never tell quite what is going on in his head, and he will never let you know what is truley going on there. i will also mis his sense of humer. I think Brandon and I think the same things are funny, things that everyone else would never laugh at. i will miss visits from my sister and her dog, Asher. I will miss hearing her voice say “hey ugly, let me…” I will miss all the rogress we ahve made in our realtionship as friends, not jsut as sisters, and knowing that even if she does call me ugly, she would be there for me if I ever truley needed her. I will miss sitting on the swing in the backyard with my mom, and going shopping with her. we can together turn even a trip to Staples into an adventure that we will laugh about for days. I will miss seeing her
love for our family, even during the times when we don’t show her enough love in return. I will miss hearing my dad talk and get excited about things that no one else truley understand him gettign excited about, like a bobcat machine, or an applience crusher. I will miss hearing him sing random songs at the top of his lungs in a language he made up, and doesn’t even understand himself. I know that i will miss this, even though I get annoyed by it now. I will miss my friends, and the drive to greeley. I will miss talking to Kelli everyday. I will miss holding ty’s hand, and just feeling like I can be myself with him. I will miss the lazy times when all we do is lay on the couch, and all our walks around the park, and being able to be held by him. I will miss our little compititions and winning waterfights! But I will not miss sharing mysef and my heart with any of these people, because I know that even in distance, the love that these people and I share can not be broken with distance, and our time apart from eachother will strength the bond as family, as a sister, as a child, and in my relationship with Ty. God is good to bring me all these people in my life!!

     I have been getting so excited though!! it is quite exciting to go to a country and have your only job all year to be love God and love other people. I get to share with them the true joy and meaning in life, and show them love like they have never experienced before!! how cool is that??? and I have the most amazing team. everyone I have talked to is so so nice! and I have gotten to meet one girl in person! she is a really fun gal, and I am excited to spend a lot of time with her!

29 days until I leave!!