my heart aches as I think about sending another member of our family home to America. Part of me wonders what the heck God is doing in the midst of this sickness he has allowed Rae to have. I know that he could have healed her, if it was his will. We have seen prayes answerd in such a way here. We have seen people who were lame walk. We have seen hearts change, and healing of sickness. Part of me wants to be bitter towards him for allowing his power to touch their lives and not the lives of my sister, Rae. The other part of me knows, with full confidence, that this is going to be used in great ways. I am so greatful for all the things that God has done in her life, and used her in the lives of others here, and I am so excited to see how God is going to continue to use her in the lives of others when she gets home. I am excited to see her in August and catch up with her!!

God is taching me a lot about that. Being okay with my circumstances. It is okay to desire change, and to pray for that change. But I have to learn to be okay with whatever God wants to give me. He does see the big picture, and i only see my own fleshly, and selfish desires.

Pray that Raelynn will be healed quickly. pray for wisdom in the doctors she goes to see, and patience as she goes through many tests. pray for her to have strength as it's hard to leave. pray she sees the difference she made here.